the worst me~

sometimes i feel im gonna cry out loud..

i just couldn't stand the stress i have..

its too much..but i chose to be in it..

so, no matter what i have to face it..till the end..

but somehow, i need encouragement..need somebody to hear me..somebody to share the shoulder for me..

the ego inside me prevent to do such things..believing that im strong enough to hold on..

but in fact, im not..

i just dont wanna to burden the others..

it is my problem..and they may not be able to comfort me as what i expected..

not telling that im very selective even though it was the truth..

but, from experiences..yes..not as expected..

but i guess, it is my problem..

what i have to do now is,

just believe..

believe in me

believe in others

believe in what is happening now and the future

and the most important is

believe in Allah

that was the greatest secret ingredient after all..

O Allah, guide me through your way..The Most Merciful

*waiting for somebody someday